he broke my trust
i used to think it was because i really loved the other person and that it was some inverted sign of maturity because i was choosing to “work through it,” at the expense of my dignity. this was all due to un-dealt-with trauma and shame from my past, which made me a sitting duck for believing lies that were just as obnoxious as the ones i was telling myself. and i no longer feel guilty about not wanting to continue …